It's insomia again. I think it hasn't happen for like few years. the feeling just sucks. it actually fears me when i have insomia. cos my heart would pound very fast and veyr hard. well, i dont know why.

anyway, i thought through alot today. I spent my day at the career fair and at starbucks with yuanting. My temper came back, i think. or rather, it's coming back. i was so pissed today. easily angered. and my temper just went off. i even gave the 'please dont irritate me' attitude to my mom. it's bad i know. :/ i'm sorry, mommy.

call me a bull. call me a stubbon girl.

for the first time in my life, i know what i want in life. but it's gone. decisions are so hard to make, but once made, it's so scary.

it's really different. this time.

*pulls hair*
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insomia insomia insomia. it's time for eye mask tmr. wahha. nevertheless, i still want a pair of pretty eyes on stage this fri :) though it's not our concert. hur. it's a new day, and i wanna start it by drawing a monkey before lunch! c'mon, gimme some inspiration. wth does monkey look like. lol. it's argh hard.

cecilia, please stop crying!
posted by Cecilia @ 2:11 AM 

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