Chatted with tom just now. It felt good. The answers were out. I mean, i'm much more clearer what is it about. at least it's not 'sick of me'. at least i dont think it is, even it is. lol. wtf am i thinking. the more i think the more miserable i am. It stablized my emotion a lil. it felt good. i miss him. badly.

I cry to sleep for the past few nights. i hope i dont tonight. for it really hurts my eyes. i cry once i wake up every morning for the past few days. duh. and jean made me tear at the office. tom surely know me well. :) i miss jean. i miss georgia. i miss aunt callie, i miss ah yee, i miss tom's uncle, i miss tom's mom, tom's dad. for they dote on me so much, and treat me so well. thank you all so much for those wonderful memories. must miss me okay :D *hugs*

hopefully i'm able to sleep later. 4 am for 2 nights. but im not tired at all. my wanting to puke is still there. haven been eating much. not so bad, cos i can achieve my flat tummy. bleh. hopefully i'm able to eat normally tmr. having my daily dose of 2 rochers in the morning, and 2 at night :)

will be having ensemble tmr. for the practice for choir concert. not bad, at least i'm filled with some things to do.

i'm so contented. cos we're in contact. at least, i'm not losing him totally. but of course, it's hard to get over. :/ these days are so hard to pass..*hugs*

monkey again tmr. i'm not happy with what i drew.
posted by Cecilia @ 11:20 PM 

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