And the scoldings are not like the quite-soft kind.. It's the YELLING kind. AHHHH *pulls hair* Everybody's sleeping, and there's yelling going on. wtf. I'm going crazy someday. definitely. I mean, why lose your temper, or rather get so frustrated and angry over a maid? knowing that they dont understand english fast enough, and learning slow?
If fast understanding and know english is needed, why not get a phillipino maid, spending a few hundred more (i think 200 more) and get down to mummy's normal self? Is it really fun to get angry everyday? every morning and spoiling the rest of the day? and even spoil other people's mood by venting anger on them? It's ridiculous.
Mummy is a taurus - same as me. I mean I do get bad temper at times of course, and I do flare up quite easily. But I guess I learnt anger management few years back. There's only a difference in us - I learn music, she dont. And I believe music really bring my temper down alot alot. Ahh, but I do understand not everybody has a passion for music, esp classical yea.
Hopefully mummy doesnt get too aggressive. sigh. It's quite a terrible headache when I see her flaring up. so uncontrollable. The only way to save your ass? - go out early in the morning and come back late at night.
That's what I am now. I mean, it's inevitable. Work + strings, saturday - chill out day. Packed. haha. But as for sundays, I try to stay at home as much as possible, meaning most likely when people ask me out on Sundays, I'll reject. Even those days that I dont have strings practice, I go home, instead of going out to chill, even I want that very much. Relaxation is what i really need mann.
I seriously dont like scoldings from other people, when they didn't even try to understand first. Like my mom, on saturday, got a terrible scolding from her. Which, I've NEVER got that kind of shit before at all! Partly, I'm a lil on the wrong part - reaching home at 3am. I told mummy I went supper at 12. 12 to 3 = 3 hours. I mean, It's quite reasonable what~ She expects me to finish the food, and poof! home. wth~
even from young, I've been a goody girl. muahhaha. I mean cos when young, mummy scold because of bad result. Though my results are not those in the top, but it's reasonably, fairly good I would say, compared to my siblings. I'm safe on this side mann. lol.
No more late nights, honest supper, and late night activities for me anymore. Mummy's gonna throw me out the next time i think. Taurus can do anything when in their hot temper. never try on her mann. scary. lol.
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Just finish my piano lesson. Woke up feeling quite grouchy actually. Having to wake up so damn early on a holiday. sadded ah. Anyway, Ms Koh was late again - 30 mins. quite ok lah, I was watching some not-interesting drama on SCV. -.-
The beginning of the lesson was good.. concentrating well, and played fairly OK. Until.. mummy woke up. Went to the kitchen, (my piano is beside my kitchen), and started the scolding. It's loud. yes. Definitely disturbed my concentration. I've been hearing the scoldings for the whole DAMN WEEK. Simply couldn't ignore it. My head's gonna explode real soon I cant even hear properly what I'm playing.
Mistakes everywhere, replay and replay the song for so many times. Which adds on to the frustration in me. IMMA PISSED! Bang really hard on the piano, and make myself listen to the notes and concentrating my fingers. Horrible morning. That is why, I never like to stay at home during public holiday. Ironically, I dont realy like to go out on public holidays either. Mummy will start nagging why am I always out.
HELLOOOOO.. I spend my time during weekdays on work and music. Isn't it good? I invest my time on something GOOD for me. From the day I joined band, and took up music, Mummy never approve. She doesn't like. Reason? - Mummy thinks I'm spending too much time on band, strings. She only likes me learning piano. u know lah, typical thinking.
I'ts not like I'm out every day for fun. I do go home and spend family time with them. But the impression created is like, I dont ever like to stay at home, only wanna to have fun and fun and more fun.
Mummy treats me well, I know. Alot of stuffs that parents had done, are for their children. I mean besides that, I do hope that they can be more understanding. Or maybe mummy doesn't see much of the outside world - my generation. Which i can understand, cos her office only consists of her age people.lol.
Maybe I just couldn't understand why other parents can understand their kids enough while my mom cant. My dad actually understands us u know! That's so amazing. :) He understands what we need, and what we dont need. Sometimes he do pamper us with watches and stuffs he bought from overseas. But thank God he stopped buying and choosing clothings for us. HAHAHA. :x no laaaa, but he dont understand our dress sense that's all. afterall, he's a guy!
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Well well, I felt much better writing these. lol. I need to vent my frustration somehow. But I dont want to vent on other people. I shall draw a monkey and poke it hard later. HAHA. - chingling taught me that.
Hopefully tom and furniture browsing later will brighten up my day. :)
posted by Cecilia @ 9:44 AM
