A Journey To Remember

Haven't been doing mocks for the past month. We were all busy rushing and closing projects. well, i've always felt very very , ultra stressed up when doing mocks. why? simply cos i couldn't 'get out of the box'. I tend to restrict myself unknowingly. The mock that i tried to 'get out of the box' recently, is a construction company. I find it very veyr hard to design such a company's web. it's not like what we always see, it's those very not-so-nice pictures provided (at least they have their own photos, though mostly cant be used), and hard to find images. I always think that they're very dead, very rigid. Always felt very miserable lol.

But i know, i have to. i have to get out of my own restriction. i've been trying hard. but often, they get rejected. not up to standard. i konw it myself. though i get disappointed, but i know it's a good chance to force myself. friends should know, i love stress! hahaha.. not that im crazy.. but i believe stress makes one grow up, or rather, forced to grow up. tormenting, but effective.

Dont know how long will i be able to survive in ape, but i'll work hard for it.

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just something to talk about, before i close my eyes to sleep.

hmm.. sometimes excuses work, sometimes they dont. when they work, it's wisely used, and seldom used. when it doesnt, it's overdosed. when it's overdosed, it hurts. when it hurts, it leads to disappointment. when disappointment occurs, it proceeds to wanting to give up. when wanting to give up, you'd want to persevere. when you want to persevere, you'll get more disapointment. and the cycle will go on and on.

when will it stop? it'll stop when you're lifted up with someone, who stands a place in your heart. when will it die off? when perseverence stops. when it stops, it's hard to be lifted up again. so why let perserverence stop? when do you decide whether to allow the other party's perseverence stop? that's when you dont bother, and dont maintain, and dont polish, and, when you dont cherish.